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Friday, October 01, 2010Basilica of Sainte-Anne-de-Beaupré. |
I just want to talk a little bit about what the Lord has been teaching... so bear with me ^_^
Now some of you may know this but when you are doing 'something' in your life... by something I mean something out of the norm, something that everyone wishes they could do or wish that some one else would do and are really excited when they meet something that is doing it. But the fact is that we are doing 'something' if that something is doing the will of God, moving to Quebec to learn french, or going to Africa or well just getting married. People want to talk to you, they want to pick your brain be around and I love it I want to talk about how God has brought me to where I am and why we are here and share my love for Christ, but a big part of me wants to dig into that person but you cant just switch topics to something that deep that fast... and as everyone knows we have moved around quite a bit in the last year so we have had to say goodbye to a lot of really good friends and move on to make new ones (But thank the Lord for Skype) so all of this unless disciplined turns you into yourself and makes you think... well that your interesting.
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Asking myself questions like "What will I do about this?" "How is this going to effect me?" " What can I do to fix this and make it better?" "This language is so dang hard, how can I continue to do this?" And the fact is that all of those questions have a 'I' in it and ALL of those situations have other people in it other then myself! The Lord brought this to my attention when I was listening to a sermon on Jonah by Afshin Ziafat (awesome speaker if anyone wants to look him up) and well Jonah was being quite a selfish guy... and the Lord just turned me inward and asked me to look at my own heart, that in all of my questioning and developing of lots of plan "B"s (Which most of us are quite good at. Saying well if God doesn't come through.. or doesn't do what he promised; I'll do this!) I was not trusting him, I was lead to think of this verse:
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Philippians 2:3 "Do nothing out of rivalry or conceit, but in humility consider others as more important than yourselves." - The Bible
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And really this isn't something that i decided and its all over with, I have to realize every selfish thought take it and give it right to Jesus, and tell him that I am his; and I do this over and over and over again. All I can do is pray that one day he will bless me with the discipline and a heart like his to never think that way again.
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